Adaptation

one of the craziest doings for me is writing my autobiography.i knew that am not a celebrity to grab everyone's interest but still am special because i want to explore unlike any other.Every man has some special experiences in their life which may not be known by any one unless shared with some one.so i want to bring my experiences in to light.yeah i want to reveal each and every corner of my life but it takes some time.its very hard to remain alive for anyone after getting over their life to others.so i need to check out the pros and cons of it before starting my autobiography because  being as a human being most of my life is interlinked with so many people.so i ought not to ruin their reputation.but now i want to share some of my experiences and few of my thoughts.

now you are going through my life which placed under Adaptation chapter.
its a bleak day.i came to office reluctantly as usually.suddenly i was surrounded by flood of thoughts.i dont know where they came from and dont know how to stop even.i didnt wonder because it has become routine in my life after attacked by the tragedy.Being as bereaved family member i have changed much.life teaches everything.i came to realize that,when it came to my experience.since thats my nature i don't believe unless i witness.the moment when i perverse with loneliness, needed some one to my mood better.suddenly i started musing over the tragedy again.
My family's declined financial status is the first thing that has tormented me the earliest.by the time i completely absorbed in to my deep thoughts and numbed almost.it didn't take much time to realize that my surroundings became blurry.i could not see anything in that instant because of my tears filled eyes.suddenly i started thinking like a normal human being to share my woes.i felt to share my sorrows with some one from whom i never expect any moral support not even response too.but i  tried to console myself and decided that if i want to share any thing that i will,..unless it disturbs no one. obviously it goes well with my preoccupied set of principles.instantly my fingers started typing a message about my gloomy mood.then it is followed by waiting for the response from that person to whom i confided.though i knew that i don't get any response from there i could not coax myself from waiting for the response.but a ray of hope in some corner compelled me to be hopeful.presumably i didn't receive any console or anything.it proved me as a fool again and deterred me not to be insane any more and warned my stupid brain not to expect any thing from any one.abruptly i became stronger enough to console myself in that instant.Being resisted from lonely feeling is not more painful than realizing the fact that my beloved person has no concern for me.
a challenging question had arisen spontaneously in my brain to forward the same message to two of my confidants.this time i didn't forward that message neither to share my grief nor expecting any support from them.my intention behind this was to know who takes care about me.then my intuition got a shock which is right in most of the situations.to my surprise i got an immediate response from one of them.i got to receive a call that stuck me almost dumb.a heart touching words from one my close friends clogged my throat.i could reply nothing beyond 'am speechless buddy' to his consoling conversation.'Whats up buddy?am here to take care of you',he said soothingly.'i never leave your hand at any moment',he promised.these soothing words echoed in my heart for a short time and refilled my heart with a galore confidence.i felt like am the richest person in the world.as my dad used to say that having a good friend is one of the luckiest things in any one's life.whats more any one can expect beyond it?if we get such kind of affection and caring from some one,nothing else is equal to it in any one's life.nothing is needed indeed.that moment forced me and even realized me that am an ordinary human.i cant escape from human affections and attachments.