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Repeated folly,..

Having regretted is inexcusable if the folly is repeated...

Realizing a mistake is not enough to be excused...

No one is excused from committing mistakes,..

What is a mistake & what is not,..?

What is excusable & what is not,..?

Going through all the stages in my life could not teach me everything.

What about the things that were taught & taught but could not be followed?

What drives me towards it again and again?

So many unanswered questions linger in my thoughts & left out unsaid,.. 

Who has to assess all these?Who can assess better than me,..?

Because no one knows me better than i knew me.

It must be assessed by someone whom i didnt know in me,..

But what if i hate myself after a clear assessment?

I must love me unless my life cant be led.

Surely i love me with all the virtues & follies in it,Of course follies committed will no longer be loved. 

Career Opportunity

Things(Opportunities) will come to us whenever we stop waiting for them. I came to realize it when I experienced it in my life.Its better suited to say when i lost an opportunity for which i have been longing for.

I got an interview call from a well reputed organization. I am going to be in my dream company where my career goes high and high, I thought.

All of my hopes tumbled down when I found the mail from them. I realize my life. As am in the same feel suddenly I got a call from the same company again. But this time I was informed that they would like to forward my profile for some other suitable positions in their organization.

All these incidents made to lose all the hopes on my career in fact on my life too. Because it were the time when my family issues were getting worse. On the other side my career issue, which made my thoughts gloomier.

Some where I got the motivation suddenly. I don’t know where it came from and why It has been so.

Surprisingly I could see my future again with a lot of plans.

I reviewed the reason for losing that opportunity. Reference is the thing, which is there behind this incident. Hence am so conscious over my career I can sacrifice anything for that. But when it comes to reality it’s not so as easy as we think. Practical implementation may be highly difficult as we planned.

But that’s the only possible way I could find to reach my destiny at that moment.

Using the reference is may be a normal idea for anyone else I think. But when it comes to an abnormal personality like me it’s a sin. Now I need to use that shortcut to reach my goal. The most shocking thing again here is I didn’t have any more references because none of my family members is in a good position.

I decided to see the references in my sight. There is no one to find in the market.

I have to get it if I want to achieve, I guided myself. My next step is finding out the references. What can be a better way to get it? But still my subconscious mind warns me not to decline for references.

Any how I have started implementing the ways to get what I want. I got to send the request to an employee whom I knew earlier through some social networking site. It’s better to say that I have wontedly introduced to him with foresight of knowing an opportunity. Instantly without any second thought I expressed my views and depressing thoughts about my career with a person who is also in the same echelons in a better company. Fortunately I got the response from him the very next day and asked me for my feasible time to appear for the face to face. I had to be at TCS for the first time as per the scheduled interview of mine. I waited at the reception almost around an hour and above. Then I happened to find the guy whom I have not known before. He is hardly five foot tall and his height is become more prominent because the lady beside of him who is almost four inch taller than me it seems. I stood up suddenly as a sign of good manners and approached him with a pleasant smile on my face, followed by wishing each other. I was asked to wait for half an hour more there. As I need to go to wash room more frequently my eyes started wandering for the wash room but no use. There is no wash room in my sight. I dared to ask someone nearby for the wash room location. He guided me some way which is nearby. Hence I finished and came back. But I got to suspect whether the candidate might have come for me in the meanwhile. In order to clear that I enquired two girls who were completely absorbed in some discussion before I leave from there. They have confirmed that no one came for me. It initiated me to know one another. They were too new to that place and they joined for completing their project. When I was completely absorbed in to some petty conversation with them, I could notice a girl staring at me with some sort of interest. Suddenly two members came there and brought my attention. They are my interviewers who escorted me to the interview cabin. I have given the interview though it’s not to my satisfactory level still I had been hopeful about it. Someone called me to know the update. I replied in a funny way as am not going to leave someone though I got this opportunity. As usually I had been waiting for the update and made a call to him. I was not surprised to listen that I had to wait for some time for getting the update again.

It taught me the proverbial words “Hope for the best prepare for the worst”.

Of course i was accustomed to follow this.

My Odyssey: My Odyssey

My Odyssey: My Odyssey: am a guy, who always drives himself in to scrape but not with innocence, with burning fire inside,....... a guy who is docile but unreachabl...

Introduction

hi
i want to introduce myself first.
am a guy, who always drives himself in to scrape but not with innocence, with some burning fire inside to explore,..
a guy who is adorable with his docility but unreachable to any one's discerning ability,...
i wanna share a little secret of mine here,.....shoooo secret be cautious.
i try to be smart with my innocent countenance that i got innately(manufacturing defect!!!)
but its not my actual persona.am a bit prouder and arrogant too.luckily no one could find my hidden personal vanity.only the people who were being with me will come to know that fact.i guess you were too,...so i dont need to lie with you!!!
you know what???
i always prefer to be with innocent people although i admire adventurous, intelligent people because there is a lot of discrimination between admiring some one or some thing and yearning to be with some one.
but when i found they were tricky and selfish i start moving away ever since from them instinctively.
here the problem is if i like any one i cant be away from them.am clinging personality,though seldom it happens.thank god i didn't come across such kind of people in my life.there is an exception for this statement in case of 2 members in my life till now.usually i didn't like to be with any one of course i do mingle with everyone because of my adaptable mentality.i study the people which is my eternal interest.i want to achieve some thing great that may not be known by any one.in fact i don't wish to be.thats must be the purpose of my life, i believe.the only desire that drives me forward in my life.i don't wanna be an ordinary man by being affected with some affections and wickedness in people thoughts.but the more i think more i prone to be,.........
Abruptly i got a rude awakening in this regard.i got an affection with some one in way that i left out my egoism and even my proud too.i think this change must be the result of my Auto phobia with which i have been suffering for 5 months.i will explain about that special person in my Auto biography which i initiate soon,...

Adaptation

one of the craziest doings for me is writing my autobiography.i knew that am not a celebrity to grab everyone's interest but still am special because i want to explore unlike any other.Every man has some special experiences in their life which may not be known by any one unless shared with some one.so i want to bring my experiences in to light.yeah i want to reveal each and every corner of my life but it takes some time.its very hard to remain alive for anyone after getting over their life to others.so i need to check out the pros and cons of it before starting my autobiography because  being as a human being most of my life is interlinked with so many people.so i ought not to ruin their reputation.but now i want to share some of my experiences and few of my thoughts.

now you are going through my life which placed under Adaptation chapter.
its a bleak day.i came to office reluctantly as usually.suddenly i was surrounded by flood of thoughts.i dont know where they came from and dont know how to stop even.i didnt wonder because it has become routine in my life after attacked by the tragedy.Being as bereaved family member i have changed much.life teaches everything.i came to realize that,when it came to my experience.since thats my nature i don't believe unless i witness.the moment when i perverse with loneliness, needed some one to my mood better.suddenly i started musing over the tragedy again.
My family's declined financial status is the first thing that has tormented me the earliest.by the time i completely absorbed in to my deep thoughts and numbed almost.it didn't take much time to realize that my surroundings became blurry.i could not see anything in that instant because of my tears filled eyes.suddenly i started thinking like a normal human being to share my woes.i felt to share my sorrows with some one from whom i never expect any moral support not even response too.but i  tried to console myself and decided that if i want to share any thing that i will,..unless it disturbs no one. obviously it goes well with my preoccupied set of principles.instantly my fingers started typing a message about my gloomy mood.then it is followed by waiting for the response from that person to whom i confided.though i knew that i don't get any response from there i could not coax myself from waiting for the response.but a ray of hope in some corner compelled me to be hopeful.presumably i didn't receive any console or anything.it proved me as a fool again and deterred me not to be insane any more and warned my stupid brain not to expect any thing from any one.abruptly i became stronger enough to console myself in that instant.Being resisted from lonely feeling is not more painful than realizing the fact that my beloved person has no concern for me.
a challenging question had arisen spontaneously in my brain to forward the same message to two of my confidants.this time i didn't forward that message neither to share my grief nor expecting any support from them.my intention behind this was to know who takes care about me.then my intuition got a shock which is right in most of the situations.to my surprise i got an immediate response from one of them.i got to receive a call that stuck me almost dumb.a heart touching words from one my close friends clogged my throat.i could reply nothing beyond 'am speechless buddy' to his consoling conversation.'Whats up buddy?am here to take care of you',he said soothingly.'i never leave your hand at any moment',he promised.these soothing words echoed in my heart for a short time and refilled my heart with a galore confidence.i felt like am the richest person in the world.as my dad used to say that having a good friend is one of the luckiest things in any one's life.whats more any one can expect beyond it?if we get such kind of affection and caring from some one,nothing else is equal to it in any one's life.nothing is needed indeed.that moment forced me and even realized me that am an ordinary human.i cant escape from human affections and attachments.